2 minus 1 equals 0

2009-11-10T01:19:00.002+08:00

i think im getting myself into some sort of trouble. oh dear. why a sudden feel for him? am i feeling this way to withdraw pain from the other end? well, it's kinda good at 1 side yet unfair, i would say, for the other. at the moment, it's all in my mind, until a day when someone wish to appreciate and learn more abt my feelings.

2009-10-28T22:10:00.004+08:00

indeed was a long day. struggling a lil to keep my eyes wide open during the dry counselling lectures. and sure, i do realised that my opinions and thinkings nowadays differ alot from dip days. it's definately due to the 2 yrs of clinical experience.

anyway, today feels a lil different. i woke up, no longer feeling as "depressed" as before. a lil warmth, a lighter feeling. i've no idea what has brought about that kinda feeling. but i hope tt will be how i feel everyday.

get to know this song from my sister, although e storyline differ from mine, but tt's how i felt.

i believe i will be able to let go of you soon!

2009-10-27T23:29:00.007+08:00

finally get to warm my bed till 12noon! =) pampered my lil gal today. spent $45 for a full professional grooming! she looks so small and much neater right now!

BEFORE

AFTER

2009-10-26T23:55:00.002+08:00

it's the start of the second week of school. gd news because we dont hav to go to school tmr- no lesson! =) weekend was burnt because of the revising. i was overly anxious i guess. waking up at 8am to read thru notes all the way till 12midnight. everyone thought i was having examination. tt's simply called - kiasu, kiasi!

finished lesson early today. well not very early but considered earliest, 4pm. after much persuasion and brainwashing by aiying, decided to let myself a day off and hang out, shopping, dinner for the rest of the evening. and yes, it was a rewarding and enjoyable one.

it maximized again today. i wonder how can one let go of the past so easily. it's just so incredibly fast. this has affected me to the highest level. =(

2009-10-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

1st week of sch is over. it's not easy. every 1st week of school supposed to be the intro week- most enjoyable, most relaxing, blah blah .. but apparently it's not! well well, how else can a 8 months compact course be? time for a break, away from work? yes.. but definitely cnt escape this friend, called stress ; much more stressful than working life! (working life has minimal stress lor!) to date, from what i understand, it seems we have 3 to 4 1000 to 3000 words essays to write. its totally crazy! projects, research, essays, exams - that's what the introduction was all about!

im beginning to buried myself under tons of "books"; or rather, heavy load of stress ! because im a perfectionist. i want to strive for the best. a very good way to divert my sorrows too. i hope my hard work will eventually pay off.

my grp leader, co-leader and treasurer are superb! it's not easy to hold such high responsibility role, in addition to the given amount of stress and time constrains. they are absolutely cool and very commendable ppl~ =)

probably something to laugh at, im still struggling to read n understand my timetable! omg! how amazing.. not that im away frm sch for long, just that it's really confusing i swear!

im sorry if i disappoint you guys with my last min withdrawal to the "gathering/meeting/visit" (whatever it's called). stress over rides me. =p

sch was kinda like a diversional therapy. but at particular time of the day, it will start to linger around the corner of my mind. like on desktop. the programme could be minimized, and at times, it will maximized. i wish i could delete that programme, and have a "anti-virus" protection against it. but at the same time, i couldnt bear deleting it. sigh! should go for IT course soon.

2009-10-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

i'm hating my life.. i need to ventilate. but i really dono how. =( i've never never felt such pain. it's really hurtful. =,(

2009-09-27T00:20:00.002+08:00

knowing that you have only 30 days left to breathe, how would you feel? lost, scared, lonely or worried for love ones? =(

2009-09-25T01:37:00.006+08:00

Spent almost $240 on wilbur's annual vax, vitamins, medication, food and accessories. it's definately worth it. for as long as he's healthy and longlife! everyone who sees him said the same thing. "handsome dog! but a lil skinny". hence, the vitamins, deworm-ing pills, and some dry dog food hoping to pump him up to look even more dashing! =) he's still the same, my timid lil boy. he would nv dare to go up onto the weighing scale whenever the assistants at the animal clinic need to have his weight taken. we always resort to having to carry him to tk our weight tgt, then minus off the weight of the one who carried him. wilbur is 19kg. according to the previous record, he lost half a kilogram. i have no idea where hav all the 3 to 4-times-a-day 1litre full icecream tub box of home cooked food gone to. probably it all end up being the fertilizers for the plant. =pp wilbur, i love you!

Truffle, i prefer calling her Chou-ti. her long fridge, covered up that "distorted" mouth of hers. she's very cute! bt She can be really annoying at times. her high pitching barks can irritate us and even wilbur. she's "half toilet trained". my dad hates it. beening the 1st to wake up every morning, he is also the 1st to hav honour to pick up her poo and clean up her pee in the living area. i wonder if chouti knows that she's gonna be kick out of the house if she continues to do this. which i hate to see her leave. =( i hope my words get into her mind. (yes, i've talked to her abt it) oh yes, she loves to eat! food can capture her soul away. she loves to disturb wilbur too! usually wilbur would "swallow his saliva" and walk away, but at times, he will attack if he couldnt take it. haha! well, it's wonderful to have these 2 doggies in my life!

in another 2 weeks or so, i would have completed 2 and a quater years of my 3 years diploma bond. a pause to my working life. back to school again, for a 8 months course advance dip in oncology in nyp. books and i hasnt talk for years. i wonder if we could still be good friends. anyway, im rather excited not because of the course, rather because of the company of colleagues who are going to be my classmates soon! im sure working and studying tgt differ alot. my friendship with books starts officially on 19oct. study hard and play hard, Jolene! and i will definately miss nursing the BMT patients and my fellow colleagues.

it's kinda awkward. i hate this feeling. i smile to cover up my sadness. it did help. minimizing the images of you back there does help to lessen some undesirable feelings too. but how long can this last? looking into your eyes, how much i wanna tell you, i wish to have u love me my whole life. but do you really belong to me? would you b better off without me? that's always the qns that pop up. if one day, my life ends without any early signs, the most regretful thing will be, not at your side on that memorable day, to tell you i really love you.

2009-09-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

it wasnt like this in the past. no matter what, i could still hear from you. is it that even ur fingers are too tired to move? are those affections shedding off as time goes by? it is a very unhealthy feeling. =( very.

2009-09-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

bought 5 mangos for $3 and a bunch of 6 bananas for a dollar! isnt that so worth while??

2009-09-10T23:58:00.004+08:00

wohoo! took part in the SGH salad making competition today. and as i expected, i won! consolation prize. =p heh. it's definately not like "salad competition? oh YES! i wanna join!!", because i was told that i named after "antisocial"? so i must prove im not. im well prepared, with no confidence! getting the ingredients was truely a last minute job, and i have never practice or even try making it at home once. my first attempt, is dedicated just for this salad competition. how sweet and touching ya? but i am very satisfied with my zesty fruits- vege salad! =) well done jolene!

He seems rather busy recently at work. OTs, Standbys. =( it's definately not what he wants. but i miss those times that we spend time with each other. even just by texting. well, if you see this, just wanna let u know, there's always somewhere to rest when ur tired and i will always be there for you. i miss you.

2009-08-29T23:15:00.000+08:00

eventually, miracle did not happen. Jiujiu (uncle) left us on the 25Aug09 1.11pm after 10months of sufferings. He's in a beautiful place, with my beloved gong gong (granddad). far from pain, far from sufferings.

25Aug was my off day. as usual, brother drove mom down to popo's (grandma) place around 10 plus in the morning to help take care of jiujiu. soon after they left, i received a call from sanyi (3rd aunt) while i was doing the laundry. She was crying over the phone. "Jiujiu is very sick. Anytime.. "

Dad picked me up at home and we rushed down to popo's place. we reached there at about 12.45pm. I saw jiujiu breathing heavily, gasping for air. the time between 1 breath to the next lengthened each time. i thought to myself, "he's gonna go soon". i tried palpating for the peripheral pulses, his hands and arms were cold n clammy, i couldnt feel anything thou he was still breathing. jiumu (uncle's wife) said, "the peripherals are long ago unpalpatable already". i felt for his carotids. i couldnt feel any. i put my ears to his mouth. i couldnt hear or feel anything. the time was 1.15pm. hospice doc H. Pong came. examined his pupil's reaction n heart sound. he looked at me and said, "IC?" The doctor certified jiujiu's death at 1.11pm. Cause of death- anorectal maglinant melanoma with multiple metastases.

jiu jiu's eyes couldnt close fully. neither could his mouth. we tried small bean bags to his eyes, but unsuccessful. i tried to hold on to his mouth in the way tt upper n lower lips met for minutes, it failed too. i carried enoch to him. sat by his bedside. put his hand over enoch's. =( my heartaches.

eryi's (2nd aunt) church's pastor came. prayed for him n the love ones. called and arranged for trinity casket service. hospice nurses came to remove the abdomen drainage frm jiujiu. 4pm, jiujiu left popo's place for cleaning, dressing and making up for the 4nights at the void deck right below. jiujiu came back at 6 going 7pm. in the brown coffin. very well dressed. very handsome. on the coffin, there was a cross. and computer-liked writings - his name, date and R.I.P.

i am very thankful to my superiors at work. they are very understanding. which allowed me to be able to be there with him every night. my siblings and i decided to make a photo collarge specially for him on the last second night. and we rushed it out within less than a day. =) glad ppl who paid their last respect for him saw his handsome and playful photos.

i am thankful to kangjie too. for paying his last respect for jiu jiu despite it was on his birthday. oh, happy belated 24th bday my dear. =) jiujiu will bless you!

we left for mandai cremadorium at 10plus this morning. just by looking at his photo made me tear. the last funeral church service was held at Hall 4.

He's the Saviour of my soul, Jesus, Jesus,
He's the Saviour of my soul, He's the Saviour of my soul
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,
He's the Saviour of my soul, He's the Saviour of my soul.

GoodBye JiuJiu. i'll meet you and gonggong again one day!

2009-08-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

welcoming another lil one to my home~! =) she occupied whole of my day. what should i name her? anybody, any idea?

2009-08-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

i hope this period will bring back everything. pls. because, i really love you.

2009-08-10T01:06:00.003+08:00

happy birthday singapore! i couldnt remember if i had ever been to NDP parade on 9august itself. i suppose it's my 1st time ba. enjoyed the fire works. but hate the humidity. i dun wanna get tann unevenly. anyway, also enjoyed the entertainment from the bunch of young ladies right in front of me screaming and dancing away happily, cam whoring. they made me feel alot older.

i'm feeling the push frm u. it's suffocating.
i need to cry. out loud. else im afraid, i will break down.
is there a "lost n not found" counter?

2009-08-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

had a rather occupied day at work. but i enjoyed the patient-nurse relationship i had with my patients. their words, actions and jokes keep me going at work. finished shift on time. visited uncle after work. he iis rather alot more cachexia looking. but im glad to see him smile. i pray that he will suffer from no pain, no discomfort and a miracle should happen soon.

been to top1 with colleagues! =) and this song that andrea sang sounded a lil like me. haha!

傻瓜　我們都一樣　被愛情傷了又傷
相信這個他不一樣　卻又再一次受傷

傻瓜　我們都一樣　受了傷卻不投降
相信付出會有代價　代價只是一句傻瓜

anyway, i enjoyed myself pretty much. whether or not if this outing is meant to destress or to cheer me up, i sincerely thank you guys.

2009-08-07T20:13:00.003+08:00

this is my 400th post. sigh.
im definately not at my 100% facing my working environment recently. i seems to age alot, efficiency at wk isnt as good. slow, that's the word. probably the brain cells aren't functioning actively anymore.
but working and out with my frens did occupied "them" for few hours. they are like morphine, controlling the pain. and once the effect of morphine wears off, the pain becomes the master!

it feels like im standing on an unstable ground. im drowsy. are we falling apart?
the heavy loads are compressing my brains, headaches.. =(

2009-08-06T00:15:00.004+08:00

it's always gd to see wilbur appear in my bedroom when i woke up every morning. he dun talk, but i know he's always listening, always by my side, thru my ups n downs. i love him alot. and i'll nv fail to whisper to him everyday, "ur my best boy!". =)

it's another noon shift at work that ended quite late. finally done with the paper work for applying for the coming october intake advance dip. not so sure if im ready to step into the world of books, projects and examinations. probably because of the title, "oncology-trained staff", or because of pay increment? or purely because im loving my job as part of the bone marrow transplant team. but definately, i feel for my patient. like today, my superior wants me to inform 1 of this patient, who shifted to the single room not long ago due to xtreme low white counts (which meant that patient stands a very high risk of suscepting infection) that they will shift him out to 5 beds tmr because they need the room for a transplant patient whose admitting soon. a sudden anger strike me because it doesnt make sense to send him out to the general ward when he's counts were even lower than before and i felt super unfair for him! that gave me the courage to march into my supervisor's room for this matter. unreasonable n unfair. =( felt rather upset for him thou the shifting wasnt confirm. hoping that there's a better bed situation tmr.

read this saying from xiang's gf blog. it kinda touched my heart. "im someone that will give my all for everything. what about you? did you even tried your best? dont try to regret something after it's long gone. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what you would have done, or could have had."

2009-08-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

spent another off day meaningfully. met meiling in the afternoon n attended my late patient's wake. the wife, upon seeing us, was quite emotional. she teared. more than a month back, i was talking to her, she cried as she knew her husband's days were numbered. she cried having to see hw skinny her husband had become, frm a active person to a dependant 1, made her heart aches alot. i remembered that her husband told me something a lil no link to the topic that we were saying. at that point of time, i felt that those words he said were not for me, more for his wife. he said, "jolene,你出去踏巴士or MRT 的时候，要小心有人跟你吹口哨，跟你搭讪。不过要专一,must be faithful。" that's the last few words he said to me. =( Mr Ng, i am faithful.

after the wake, we headed to aljunied to visit fang's mummy. i could feel that she was so glad to see us. i felt better to see that she's slowly accepting that fang's no longer around. but i know she needs more time to pick herself up straight. i believe she can do it. fang watching her from above. =)

met up sin, zhen, yang2 n kenny? for dinner at chinatown. had quite a full 1. despite my bad throat, i ate mee goreng and tom yam soup!!! bt i drank coconut juice n also eat the coconut meat, which meant to be heaty. =p ate mango also! another heaty fruit. gd luck ms throat! anyway, thanks gals for ur concerns. without you2, i may hav no where 2 pour sorrows. =)

2009-08-03T21:18:00.002+08:00

it hasnt been this difficult. totally different from how i usually advised. standing at a relative point of view, i truely hope for a real miracle to happen. but i too wanna bring across a msg to prepare them for the worst as well. i dun wish to see them falling from sky high if "worst" hpn. =( it's not as easy as i thought. miracle, jesus, we need you to heal him!

im sick! finally. haha. after some expensive durians, i developed quite bad sore throat. what a waste. distorted voice. painful throat. herbal tea. more chocolates. =p yup, stubborn me.

i'm disappointed! very disappointed. what am i suppose to do? i dislike to discover it. dun ask me how i find out. it just really really hurts alot. :,( =((
i beg u to be true to me.

2009-08-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

Happy Nurses' Day! =)

another month passed within a blink of an eye.

12 days trip to yunnan with my 3 dear colleagues last month was definately an eye opening experience. Spend almost S$1700-S$1800 all in all. the 1st few days there was really a torture. im weak i suppose. had very bad diarrhea, like bowel incontinence. im glad the gals were around and they really took great care of me! i had many things to comment abt the place. but not very ethical or should i say not "nice" to blog about it. well, but i enjoyed the sceneries alot! mountains, rivers, animals, etc etc.. i've gt full photo albums on fb, check it out. =)

back to work to realise one of our patients had H1N1 and passed away due to transplant complications. sigh. please dont ask me how's the survival rate of bone marrow transplant. =(

finally accomplished most of the things that i wanna do. =) watched iceage3 with kj, swim for an hr at bv complex with sin, went cycling, blading and ate durians yesterday with sin, zhen, bro, sokmin and calvin. felt great sense of satisfaction, being able to blade within 2 hrs. thanks to sokmin. was my 2nd time on a roller blade, and i din fall at all! =p remembered the 1st time, few years ago, sec skool day i suppose, i fall everytime i stand up. omg! n im so sorry to the ppl ard who helped me or being "bang" by me. haha! i want to blade agn! and get more tann..
had dim sum for dinner at geylang. went to hunt for durians after dinner. and ate 4 durians (mao shan wang) for $117!! nvm, it's a lesson learnt. and i think they caused me to feel a lil wierd in my throat n voice today. but im craving for more durians! =)

it's another off day. =) spent the day home clearing the storeroom and get the laundry done. surprising, i dont feel any aching over my lower limbs. blading any1???? =))

2009-07-02T18:25:00.004+08:00

19 june -

she left the world, to some where better. (i suppose) im definately missing her. it just hurts right deep down, to see u last, in the brown box. =( but im relieve, that you were finally away from sufferings. u will always n forever stay in my memory. gal, i miss you.

Travelling to YunNan coming sunday with my group of colleagues for 11 days. hope the trip will be super fun!! =)

2009-06-14T16:58:00.002+08:00

i m patient.

suddenly got the urge to tann myself darker. cycling, swimming, roller blading, singing, playing netball! lotsa stuffs i wanna do. since when am i so out going? haha. i wanna widen my social circle. not just my sch mates n working colleagues. i dont want to be label as introvert, although i think i am. i dun want to be label as antisocial! because i am not. =p (am i?) im just quiet. talk as necessary. to ppl whom im comfortable with.

dun wanna waste my life away. =)

2009-06-13T18:43:00.002+08:00

ages since i had a whole weekend off! =) finally it rains. spend the day wisely under the sun most of the time. wash clothes, brought willy for walk. bathe the smelly boy. n gonna head down to my grandparents' place soon for my granddad 76th birthday! =) it's food time! =)

2009-06-12T20:58:00.003+08:00

definately "very busy" these few days. couldnt find a time when im in the right mood to update my blog. seriously, now when i have the mood, i donno what to blog about.

since back frm taiwan, it's all about work. but im quite happy at work thou. i love working with ppl who help around genuinely. many of them are just the old staffs, n they are just so countable. sad to say, ppl who dont still exist. the ward im working at seems to be flooding in quite a no. of new staffs. n im really hoping that the "inconsiderate act" n the "bad practice" doesnt spread like how H1N1 do globally. hence, i believe, tt is why the preceptors are so impt being the role model! the correct kind. =p i love my job, n i love to make my patients look clean n feels good. esp those bed ridden patients. tt's of course, if i were given the time to. it's really satisfying!

recently, many of the patients arent doing good post marrow transplant. many din make it. many made thru but subsequently relapse or deteriorate with post transplant complications. it's always depressing whenever the familiar faces of the transplanted pt warded with relapse. n felt terribly upset for those who left not much time to see the beautiful world. talked to one of them just last week. i could feel his fear n lost. but the last sentence that you must never relate to them is "i understand how you feel", because u can never understand unless ur in their shoes. n i tot i said something "wrong" to him too. which i felt terribly guilty. =( as i talked to his wife that few days back, my eyes always filled up with tears when she teared. she said she felt heart pain, whenever she sees him lying on his bed, knowing tt he would leave her soon. all i could tell her, is to spend all her time with him till his last moments. suffer no more!

another patient whom im quite close to, she's still in icu. it's been 3weeks since i last talked to her. tt's when she was still conscious, still able to talk to me. i'm very glad i saw her tt day n gave her a hp accessory that i bought from taiwan. tt smile on her face, when she received the small gift, i'll never forget! i regretted alot, not being brave enough to give her a hug before i leave. i remembered, i was trying so hard to hold my tears when i visited her 3 weeks back. tt's why, i chose not to hug her, as i know my tears would just flow uncontrollably if i had tt courage to do that. BUT IM TOTALLY REGRETTING IT! =( gal, listen up! i know it's very hard, but u have to pull thru, for dr hwang's efforts, for u mummy's tears n love, for ur brother/dad, ur supportive friends, n of course, for the nurses who want you back!

uncle isnt doing gd. it spreads. enoch is only 4 months old. why? it's upsetting to know that uncle chose to wait for the day. it's more disappointing to hear frm him that the doctors din spend time explaining stuffs thoroughly. why din uncle met a doctor lik dr linn or hwang?

i need to see alot of miracles, really really.

2 days back, visited my grandaunt (my granddad's sister) in SGH 76. she was admitted for elective TKR due to severe OA. i was so worried she wont recognise me, because we hardly meet, like once a year? ya n indeed, she dont. =p but she was really happy to see me when i addressed her "lao gu" (old aunt in teochew i suppose). she held my hands tightly, n asked me in teochew "who's daughter are you?". she could only converse in teochew with minimal mandarin. n sadly, i could only understand minimal teochew. so, it's kinda talking with hands n legs, like chicken n ducks talking. (haha! nah.. im not that bad in my teochew ok! still able to understand 40% la). eventually, after much efforts, she finally know who's my dad n hw am i related to her. we talked like im her granddaughter n she's my grandma lorh! very sweet n loving. hee. then suddenly, out of no where, her eldest daughter marched into her cubicle. omg. a DAMN FIERCE n LOUD 38 AUNTY! i never seen her before! laogu has 9 children all in all, i onli knew it when i was chatting with her minutes ago den. due to the H1N1, visitors restrictions applies to all patients. n because tt, the fierce aunty happened not to be in her visitor nomination list. (max. only 8 visitors each pt) she was the "non highly educated" kind - her mandarin was half past six, but her teochew n malay language was marvelous! she was yelling in teochew at laogu at her top of her voice in the 6bedded cubicles during visiting hours. the yellings captured all the eyes of the surroundings. i seriously donno how to react n i was like desperately wanting to dig a hole to hide. as far as i could understand frm the yellings, tt was tt aunty's 2nd visit to the hospital to visit laogu. n because she's nt in the nomination list, she faced the same problem she had few days back at the visitor screening booth. the staffs there din allow her to visit laogu simply because of the rules. n i suppose, her character somehow fought her way thru the booth n finally n definately, she won the "verbal fight" against the screening staffs. bt after the "fight", it boiled her blood to 100degree celcius. which den "scalded" laogu n indirectly, "scalded" me as well. i felt extreme heart pain for laogu, for being screamed at in front of so many strangers, by her own blood-related daughter! seriously felt terrible!!!! so much that i wanna cry lorh! n after some short conversation with her, it seems that she doesnt like my grandma n granddad. she tried telling me why but was interrupted by laogu, n i could see that laogu was very frustrated. she was saying in teochew, "why are you telling a small gal this for??". she emphasized to me that she doesnt have any relatives n only MONEY is her relative. she also commented that if laogu isnt her mother, she wouldnt even wanna step into such a "bad luck" place. that aunty's high pitched n loud voice was so disturbing that it actually resulted in the next un-resolvable problem for me. this indian pt 1 bed away frm laogu raised her voice in english to invite her out of the cubicle/hospital as she was obviously disturbing to everyone. n to my surprise, tt 38aunty scolded her back in malay!!!! which i only understand the word "mati'. another verbal fight started within the cubicle itself. n this time, it brought the attention of the ward sister n the hospital security staffs. i tried simmering down that 38aunty, it somehow helped, bt doesnt reverse the situation. what said was alrd said. after the ward sister talked to the indian pt, she talked to me, n i translated to her. they requested her to apologise to the pt but her immediate reaction upon the word apologise struck her eardrum, she jumped in anger n turned to the indian pt n said something in malay agn which had the "mati" word in it AGAIN! n she left without leaving any clue for me on what i should do next. she's so unreasonable! she left me totally blank! the atmosphere was super awkward. the ward sister gave me the "you better settle this matter" look. i dont even know that crazy woman, i've never seen her before, n how am i gonna settle such problem??!!! SIGH! bt lucky, thanks to the amt of teochew tt i understood, i recalled tt laogu was telling me earlier on tt the daughter n her family tt she was staying with would visit her daily. hence, i passed the problem over to her blood related granddaughter who came 15mins after the whole incident. although i was relieved that i wouldnt have to settle such problem, but i definately felt really heart pain for poor laogu. she was there after her op, still in pain physically, yet den have to suffer emotion pain as well. i felt so upset that i went home, n cried really badly to my parents when i relate the whole incident to them. i just hope laogu will be alright. tt's the most impt. count on my luck, for bumping into her eldest unreasonable daughter while visiting her. shuck!

anyway, celebrated qz's bday last sat with her church mates. n we planned to join their big big sports event cum competition coming july or august! wa! im gonna play netball lei! so long never touch a real ball le. kinda excited. =)

during the past week, i learnt to be less emotionally dependent on someone whom i always thought it felt great n secured to depend on. i know, no 2 person think exactly the same way. for that, i chose to respect his idea. i'll live emotionally independant. i will try. somehow i think i succeed. for at least the past week i guess i have. =) jiayou!

2009-06-01T01:12:00.003+08:00

it's soon another half a year over. time flies n i'm going on my 2nd year of experience in nursing line. 1 more year to go before saying farewell to my bond. i've heard that im gonna work in 72 in my next roster. tt's kinda sad to hear thou. not because 72 isnt good, just tt im used to 48. n i thought i work better at some where more quiet, lesser "traffic". well, they said they wanna train the new BMT nurses. SIAN. i've got strong urge that im gonna suffer in 72. =( suffer as in- no more going home on the dot! but anyway, i seldom go back on the dot. (i know the very someone back there reading this must be, " i totally agree on that!") hee. =p

lf- come on, be strong and pull thru all difficulties! i'm all ready for have u back.

over the past 1 month, watched 3 movies with dear. Angel n demons, Night of the Museum 2 & Terminator salvation. it's always great spending time with him. im loving him.. =)

gathering with poly mates on 25 may at downtown east chalet. photos in fb. had dear joined me for the gathering. it was damn fun. esp with the game introduced by zhen's church mates, who what huh.

2009-05-30T20:09:00.002+08:00

been long sine i last update. i feel so incomplete to continue blogging when i din manage to complete my last entry. laziness tk over me. =p so many things happened in such short time. many of it, cannot really rmb.

what's occupying my mind most of the time - family, kj, wilbur, work, n lf. i pray hard, that u will pull thru.

2009-05-11T00:29:00.107+08:00

Taipei Trip (5May09 - 9May09)

5May2009 - Day 1
Met Dear at my place at 5.25am. Was Raining heavily then. Brother later fetched both of us to changi Airport, reached there around 6.30am. checked in n boarded the plane near 8. (btw, my checked in luggage was 9kg then). Started Cam-whoring as soon as i board the plane. hee. n ya! i must say that the clouds up there are really beautiful! =)

Touched down at Taipei TaoYuan Airport around 12.45pm. almost 4 hours flight. I was expecting that i would see many notices n staffs engaging in the thermal screening n events tt link to the influenza, but surprisingly, there wasnt any thing much as compared to Singapore. Headed to the immigration counter, n of course, not to forget to tk photos again. hee.

After claiming my luggage, we went to search for the person whom suppose to meet us up at the airport n ferry us to our hotel. We were told by our travel agency that this person will either write our names or the name of the company on a poster. After which, a few of the tourists will tk the same transport, n head to taipei's few hotels stops. We spent awhile looking through all the posters, n finally saw this man who held this poster in his hand ->

He spelled dear's name wrongly! wahahah! =p Chen KONG Jie John. The man told us to wait for him at the exit. Naturally, both of us thought there were still other tourists who hadnt arrive at the airport hence we expected that we had to wait for a little while more. Meanwhile, we took another shot while waiting. The weather was really windy, so cooling.

Then, our 1st surprise happened! The man who waited for us with tt poster at the airport came in his black mercedes. Wow~ tt was super cool lorh! He's like a personal chauffeur of ours. Just the both of us! He drove us all the way to Ximenting - where royal castle hotel was. thanks dear for this shot. =p after 4 hours flight plus insufficient sleep that night. hee.

Checked into our hotel at 2 plus near 3pm. settled down. unpacked a lil of our stuffs. planned our itinerary for that day. n finally, decided to xplore Ximenting 1st, then to Mirama Entertainment Park for the ferris wheel ride. Due to poor navigation ( that's y i dropped geography), not only my poor navigation but somebody else's too, =pp, we lost our way, walking up n down the street even with a map in our hands. but fortunately, with some friendly help from the residents there, we found our way to XiMen Mrt which is actually only 5 -10mins walk from our hotel. haha.

We bought our EasyCard (S'pore Ezlink), n took the Mrt down to Jiantan Station. The mrt interchange is really big. we managed to get to our destination without losing our way with the help of all the big signages.

N finally, we're at Jiantan. Took the free shutter service that brought us to Mirama Park. Tried the Ferris Wheel which cost only NT$120 each for a 15minutes long ride! =) the view right at the top was awesome! there is a total of 48 cabins, only 2 of it are transparent, n the rest are coloured. of course, we chose the transparent 1.

After the ride, we took more photos of the ferris wheel. =)

1st time in my life, i was on a merry-go-round! =p

before leaving Mirama Park, we window shop a lil in the mall. n dear saw a panda which he was in love with. hahaha!

Took the free shuttle bus back to Jiantan station, then went to Shilin Night Market which is next to jiantan station. Ate the big chicken chop, Lu Rou Fan, n bought cute n colourful socks! =p wanted to try the smelly toufu, but the smell of it just put me off. eek.

tt's about it for Day 1 in Taipei. =)

6May2009 - Day 2 (tour package)

Another surprise awaiting us early in the morning! Our trip was a free n easy tour with a tour guide bringing us around taipei package on day 2. We were xpecting the tour bus with tour guide n many others tourists(the normal kinda tour la). but it wasnt! it was just the tour guide(Mr Hong), dear, me and the car! A very comfortable car! =p damn cool can! hahha.. =)) definately worth the trip. n both of us paid him NT$1000, which is only abt S$25 each for a whole day around taipei! Our itinerary for that day - 1st stop was CKS memorial, then to Martyrs' Shrine (Zhong Lie Ci) to view the changing of guard duty. next was Jiu Fen, YeLiu GeoPark, Hot Spring at YangMingShan, then to Huasi Night Market. there were some in between visit to 2 shops, which seems to be the tour guide's friend's shops.

CKS Memorial -

Martyrs' Shrine (Zhong Lie Ci) - Changing of guard Duty is daily, n hourly.

Next stop was Jiu Fen. while travelling along the expressway, i saw some cemetry over up on the hills. According to Mr Hong, taiwanese call cemetry as "Ye Zhong Hui" (night Club). interesting isnt it?

took some photos of the roads, tunnels as well as the patrol kiosk. oh ya, taiwan vehicals are left-hand drive. their road directions are also opposite to s'pore's.

while waiting for Mr Hong to pump up his vehicle, we took another snap. =)

Soon after, we arrived at JiuFen. Saw the Jilong Hill - a temple in the middle of it. the view up there was amazing. photos will speak louder than my words! hee.

Next was shopping n eating at jiufen street.. bought many mochi, jelly, cuttlefish, little pouches there. n i saw this super cute doggy! love it so much man! picture of the doggy n me turn out quite well. thanks to dear! =) but the puppy seems so shy to look at the cam. hee. took our mini lunch at this fishball stall whereby the walls of the stall are fully decorated with the ladyboss's self portraits. OMG! she's super cam whore man!

Now comes the best part of the blog entry! HEEEEEE! I shall award myself the best photographer award! with the best picture captured during the whole trip! im sorry my dear. but i promise you that this pic will definately not be missed out. =p forgive me for this! keke..

how's that?? so cute, isnt he? heh heh.. 100points for making me laugh like whenever i look at these pictures.. i had attempted a few times helping you to put ur upper n lower lips tgt. but failed larh. hee.. =p

Next stop was the place that i longed wanted to go! YeLiu GeoPark! was super excited man! =p but my camera went flat after the abv shots. (my camera cant stand how funny was the abv shots, so it needs some rest) hee. following photos are kindly "contributed" by dear. =p

Beautiful isnt it??? All natural sea n wind eroded stones!

you saw that?? tt's the most famous stone in yeliu! it's QUEEN'S HEAD!

US N QUEEN'S HEAD!

next few shots are all the other nice nice sea n stone pictures at Yeliu! I love this place so so much! the wind, the sun, the sea breeze! hate to leave that place..

More pics of a close up view of Queen's head n us.. =)

The interesting thing abt this queen's head is that u can onli see it from a certain angle. n the following picture is a view of it from the right side. it doesnt look lik a queen's head at all. n i noticed a survillence camera just right behind this spot - just in case some1 touch it n break her neck. n there, another pic of us n the queen's head from the wrong view.

this do look like a fairy's shoe ya?

the next few photos a little lame thou. but i love our lame-ness. haha!

saw this particular stone that looks lik a chair? it's curve in just like a seat. hee.

dear do hav a lil bit of good photography skills i must comment about. =) but of course, without the model, how can pictures be so beautiful?? heee =pp

YangMingShan hot spring was the next destination. i guess i created a joke out of myself in front of Mr Hong. but how would i know that we were really going to soak in the spring water? all i thought was just going there to see how hot spring looked like. haha! well, great experience thou. =) spent NT$100 for a miserable towel because both of us werent prepared to soak. and i've forgotten to take a photo of the place! tsk!

well well, supposingly our next and last destination was shilin night market. but because we had been there on Day1, hence we boldly requested Mr Hong to send us back to our hotel to unload our bags of goodies, n picked up to huaxi night market which is just a mrt station away from our hotel. he was so kind n agreed immediately. =) how nice! oh ya, we supposed to give NT$700 for 2 of us to him as a tour guide fee. But my dear top up another 300 as tips. not too bad thou. because it's less than S$25 each for a comfortable trip round taipei city! =) very very worthwhile!

Had our dinner at Huaxi Night Market, followed by some shopping along the street. then headed to Longshan Temple.

look at how cute is dear in the above pictures! haha..

took train from longshan Mrt back to Ximen. initially planned to walk back as it's onli 1 stop away. but we werent confident n the chances of losing our way was high! haha..

Back to ximen, while buying some drinks back, we took another few snaps.. hee

back to hotel by 11pm. and tt's all for Day 2 in Taipei. =)

7May2009 -Day 3

our 1st stop was to Nanjing East rd station to look for the famous Hong Shih Fu beef noodle. took a train down, it took us quite awhile, almost an hour i suppose, to find the shop! omg. anyway, tried the sour n spicy soup, n the beef noodle. definately worth the trip down.

after food, planned to visit the miniature museum but looked like the map given the wrong information, hence we decided to go tk the train to taipei city hall station n visit dear's long waited Taipei 101!

after walking a distance, finally we reached 1o1. n saw this notice. haha! shuttle bus to mrt. (faint lor) haha.. but the walking distance frm the station wasnt v far la.

got ourselves some drinks in the mall after walking.. n saw something interesting.. singapore sentosa food. a lil too small to see. can view from fb. =)

headed to the obsevartory ticketing to buy the tickets for entry to the highest part of 1o1. cost about NT$400 each. not cheap but good experience. =)

we were waiting for the lift as only 2 lifts were for passenger service all the way from 5th to the 88 storey.

took ALOT of photos up at the gallery. for more pictures, can view my facebook account. =)

shadow of 101

after that, we went up to 91storey, the outdoor obsevatory of 1o1. OMG it was really windy!

walked thru the section where the super big wind damper was. hmm din really read what's tt is n what is it for. =p took a no. of funny photos with the mascot.

snap a few random shots while leaving the 101 mall.. cam whore indeed! =p

as we were walking back to taipei city hall station.. took few candid shots again.. haha..

Took train to Dan Shui Station next.. it was 5 plus near 6 in the evening. we thought that we would b in time to catch the sun set. well, we did saw the sun when we were in the train at dan shui. but sadly, before we reached the river, the sun went home alrd. =( sigh! we even ran frm the station to the river, bt we were too slow. haha! the scenary is still very nice thou! =)) super windy..

bought ferry tickets for NT$200 each for round trip from danshui to fisherman wharf n back. the wind was so strong, tt the boat sway from 1 side to another as if it's gonna capsize. almost get sea sick frm tt. again, photos photos photos .. hee..

abt 10 to 15 mins later. that's what we saw! =) lover's bridge!

n next, i saw another super cute puppy! weeee..

board the boat back to dan shui old street at abt 7 plus. while waiting for the boat to set off..

tried out the delicacy of danshui old street - A Gei, Fishball soup n also the long long ice cream!

shopped alot along the street of danshui. bought many mochi n jelly again.. headed back to ximenting and had our proper dinner at 12mn. tsk tsk tsk. it's not as easy to find food tt late at night.

back to hotel around 1plus am. tired but still hav the strength to tk photos before resting. hee.

tt's all for Day 3 in Taipei! =)

8May2009 - Day 4

to be continued...

2009-05-05T01:05:00.003+08:00

Virus Attack!

updated! =) haven been updating for a week. due to the hectic working hours. OT everyday. PM work till 11.30pm, AM work till 5.30pm. No food. No water. No FRESH AIR!

BMT moved house again. only shifted there for 6 months, due to the unfortunate global event. forced to shift out to give way to SGH Infectious Disease Department to get things ready just in case (touchwood, pray hard s'pre will b spared for this).

Orange Alert- it's really scary. i've nv thought i would experience this in my nursing career actually. temperature n visitor screening booth set up the following day as soon as the news reported widespread of swine in Mexico. in just a blink of an eye, green turn to yellow then to orange in less than a week. long Qs of visitors seen queuing all the way out of the building. Visitors are limit to 1 per patient, hospital n ward became rather quiet, but our amt of work load carry on as per normal. No. i think it's even more workload n working hours. sigh! donning n removing Gowns, Gloves, Goggles, N95s/Dragger when attending to each patient. uniforms these days are always soaked with litres of sweat. tt's already enough to make us real busy.

30/4 thurs- when sister annouced that s'pore has stepped up to orange alert level, she added on, saying "All annual leave are freeze! No staff are to leave the country." i was like so BLANK! because i suppose to depart on the 5may for taipei. really worried alot that the trip will hav to cancel because of such request. Appeal Letter for permission to leave the country submitted last sat 2May. n result was known only on the 3may at 7pm. =) n im really grateful that my appeal is successful, my AL is approved! n im leaving in the next few hours.. will enjoy myself, n of course, not to worry, i'll take the neccessary precaution measures! =D update agn!

dear Gown, Gloves, Goggles, sweaty uniforms, n N95s/Dragger! see you guys next week! =p yes esp you, N95s/Dragger! (if my face hav pimple outbreak- all the credits are definately yours!)

2009-04-28T15:55:00.002+08:00

off day!! =)

m happy. small things do really make me happy! silly me. ur smile. n our photos. =D

im immune. immune to the gastric juices. i think i can survive, without food for days. hahha! well trained by SGH. good job done!

2009-04-27T23:15:00.003+08:00

omg. i saw something that i shouldnt see. my heart just dropped straight down to the floor. i know what i saw is not what it meant. bt because, .

i dun wish to xplain further. smile, tt will do it all.

2009-04-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

days at work isnt very happy. probably due to the stress n amt of work load, patient's condition as well, causing it very emotionally n physically taxing! whenever there's a chance of leaving her room for even as short as 5mins, tt'll b good enough. but most of the time, it's just so hard to find tt 5 mins to escape just to breathe some fresh air. unbelievable right? =( got a little pissed off with this particular NYP advance dip student. i couldnt sense any single bit of the initiative in her lor. wish her luck man!

enjoyed my 2 days off to the max! glad tt i dun hav to go to work, relax at home! =D spent time with wilbur, mum, tv, laptop, bed n kj! =) n im so glad tt i saw my favorite thing today with the person tt i treasured. heh heh. love the view of the quiet n peaceful city..

=))

2009-04-19T01:51:00.009+08:00

Travel Fair. Settlers.

happy 7 months kj~

finally, 2 days course is over! =D surprise n happy tt kj came to my wk place to meet up with me after course. went to cine, had jap meal which isnt v nice. then movie next. haha. watched tt twice, because he said he planned to watch with me actually. so, yup. but nevertheless, it was still nice to watch tt agn. =p n he accompanyed me back home! haha. felt so well taken care of. love tt feeling!

met kj yest morning to suntec for travel fair. n we finally made our decision on ASA's taipei free n easy package of 5d4n after enquiring a few other agencies. im excited yet scared n stress abt it. scared because after watching- taken n scared because it will b only my 2nd time gg out of country without my parents. i believe tt he will tk gd care of me thou. hee. like the father in taken. haha!

met carolyn after tt for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at ps. =) nice sitting down @ KFC, eat n talk for an hours plus almost two. headed to the central next to meet up with leong n aiying. had another super light dinner tgt with them at 1 of the hk-liked stall. after dinner, "settlers" was our next stop. was my 1st time to tt kinda place. cafe with many board games! =) spent the rest of our time there. 3 full hours. which cost us roughly $14 each. so here it goes,

im overly poison! >_<

n carolyn "opening up" the lil pressie from us as a"study well" gift! =p

n lastly, our group photos! =))

2009-04-16T23:01:00.004+08:00

TL.Movie.Dinner.

1st day of patient counselling course. late for 15mins because of packed bus that refused to open the front door. waited for the next n managed to squeeze myself into the bus. next was the jam. spent double the time to get to chinese garden MRT station as compared to usual. i hate office hours job. dislike seeing ppl having to rush to work, squeezing in public transport. anyway, i thought the course would b boring. well, it is a lil, but the speaker was not bad, managed to keep me awake, even after lunch, at such humid weather. suppose to end at 5 but she ended off earlier. =)

"Taken" - great movie! im touched with how deep a father's love can be for his only daughter, risking his life to save her. all because of Love.

dinner with colleagues at secret recipes. love the company.

travel back with faz. talked alot abt work. so glad she's in my ward. =) just hope she would be more brave n protect herself from "bad" things.

2009-04-15T22:19:00.002+08:00

"explored" whole of SGH today after work for some matters. not very big but not very small either. SGH is getting more n more advance in IT. incredible on the upcoming system but really wonder if it's really necessary. w.e.f. somewhere in may, all patients will be tagged! like animal lorh. aiyo! privacy invaded. no matter where they go, it will b known to all. seems cool, but like kinda unnecessay. revenue wasted. =p

dinner with Aiying at our very own housemen canteen. talk many things abt work. thou tired, but did enjoyed chatting with her. =)

2009-04-14T23:53:00.002+08:00

fast n furious- nice movie.

needle prick injury again. lucky it's clean.

2009-04-12T12:43:00.001+08:00

本来还满期待的，因为是你主动 plan 的约会。但你因为太累了，而睡过头。以为自己还能体谅，但还是让“想太多”的我，让它take over我的emotions。 honestly，我觉得还满失望的。毕竟，这不是第一次了。不知道，我在你心目中，是不是 not very important。还是，是我把你看得太重要了？ =(

its not easy to have the same off day. we din cherish it.

2009-04-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

went to his wake yesterday with huangyu. it's really heart warming to see tt his wife still the same. but i know once everything's over, her sadness will take control. sigh. i thought i could see him for the last time. but sadly, the family decided to nail down the coffin, not showing any part of his body. the last time i saw him, was sunday (4april). sigh. rest in peace P. =(

another patient went to icu yesterday. i hope she's will make it thru. for her daughter. jiayou!

2009-04-08T00:48:00.002+08:00

back to work. as usual, occupied.

just lost 1 patient today. was really shock to know tt his condition deteriorate. he was just fine 2 days ago. really fine! walking around. till this morning, his blood pressure plunged. his oxygen level dropped. sent to ICU in the noon. i truely thought he will come back to us, tt i din even have my last look at him. i tot he was a strong man who would hold on there. =( he left us at 9 plus last night. leaving behind his wife. =( i'll remb u said sorry to me on the day u admitted, because u came in late, n i've to stay back to finish up ur admission changes. ur such a nice man! we'll definately remember u! rest in peace!

2009-04-05T23:44:00.004+08:00

sunday @ wk was still the same. occupied as per normal days. work is like gg on hunger strike. horrible feeling. but working colleagues are great. Just tt mayb all of us were busy with our own stuffs, hence the words n body language used isnt v friendly. =p i must say honestly, i think my body language was a lil unfriendly. im sorry for that. trying my best to smile my heavy work load away. n im really glad i went off home early today! at least alot earlier than the usual days. did onli 5mins OT today. break record. off tmr! happy happy! =)

pictures with darling! =)

2009-04-05T00:24:00.004+08:00

emotional input. just trying to ventilate.

sometimes, i wonder, is it good to put a lil more feelings into relationships. irregardless whether is it bgr, patient-practitioner relationship, or whichever. just human relationships. human tend to expect the same treatment, same feeling from the person they are treating. n when he or she doesnt feel the same, they really wonder if it's really "worth" it. hard to explain. thinking abt it - just 1 single word to describe, YU MEN! ( right aiying? haha.. )

anyway, work was alright on sat. occipied but there's finally time for meal! =) working with aiying, tong n lily. happy working colleagues. n the medical Officier is so serious looking n charming. hee. whereas the HO. blur sotong. =p

2009-04-04T11:58:00.001+08:00

out after work yest. met kj for dinner cum lunch cum breakfast at cwp. watched "shinjuku incident". nice 2 hours show! =)

2009-04-02T02:06:00.003+08:00

my 2 off days just finished in a blink of an eye. =( feeling so unwilling to get back to work.

anyway, enjoyed out with aiying yesterday. woke up 12noon, met her at bugis J at 3pm, n i was late for 30mins! =p opps. hee. breakfast cum lunch at wang kok hk restuarant, complained to each other abt bad ppl at work. accompanied her to collect her new specs, shopped around for presents, bought some ear accessories as well. =) n lastly, watched a movie. =) "confessions of a shopoholic" nice n funny movie. felt kinda fresh movie with a fren. haha =x because im used to movie with dear most of the time. hee. =p anyway, thanks aiying for the movie!

i'm missing U dear ~ :)

2009-03-31T21:41:00.003+08:00

after work yest met dear at cwp for dinner. n i've forgotten to inform Aiying tt i couldnt make it for our appt! im so sorry aiying.

took photos with dear! he look so cute! hee =) seems v long nv take photos with him.. =p

2009-03-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

met carolyn for work on sat. thanks for the breakfast carol! =) sat was a bad 4 hours at work =( probably because tt she's "new" to the surroundings. n she's used to doing the management level kinda job. lucky was only 4 hours at work. went for my AED course after that. n after all the CPR practising, i developed sores n aches today! felt so lik an OLD woman. sitting down on my bottock also pain. n after the course, had dinner with dear n his dad at old changi checkpt. next was movie at Cwp - dragonball, legend of chunli. quite nice. wanted to comment something abt kj- so sweet of u!=) thanks for the mango!

work today was great! back to the same ppl i used to work with. rather the "mo qi" working tgt is already there n we understood our "standard" way of practising up there. headed to grandparents' place after work. n thanks indrani for the ride there. 1 more day to my 2 rest day! jiayou!

2009-03-26T19:16:00.006+08:00

she's back to us! =) she stay there for merely 18 hrs only. what's more i received her back. n she so stable now lorh.. aiyo. doesnt look like some1 who's back from ICU. n she's probably gg home soon next week. Happy for her! carolyn, dont worry! she's in my good hands ok.. hahaha.. poh poh asking where are u wor.. he misses u many many.. keke..

out with leong, chin n indrani yest for sushi at Sakae! wee.. enjoyed the dinner.. =))

off today.. Hand washed my own uniforms n clothings ok! im doing the manual wash, how hardworking.. hahah! n bought wilbur out for car ride to buy his medicine. hee.. love my wilbur!!!

2009-03-23T23:48:00.001+08:00

what a day! sent her to SICU. well. i think she's gonna be alright.. =)

2009-03-22T11:03:00.007+08:00

Happy 1st month old Enoch! =)

The celebration was held at the function hall at my grandma's place. managed to take a photo of the function hall from 8 storey..

prayer was the 1st thing..

followed by food! =)

then some random snap of the crowd..

and of course, many snaps of cute babies, pretty cousins n me.. hee.. =)

2009-03-19T23:40:00.012+08:00

firstly.. happy 6 months to me n my dearest kj! =D

back to the topic abt the sway-ness on monday! so unlucky to get involve in the sudden mock internal audit of the ward. held up by our dearest Dr Png- i donno what's her job title la.. some sort of nurse tt's at the high high level. i was occupied enough with my own stuffs, with tt irritating audit, it made me super busy. n what's more, asking me things abt where this n that are kept when i wasnt working at my mother ward for months. (oh ya, i have not mention tt i was working at 72 on the day of audit). and i was also very sway to be the one holding the Control Drug Key. All the more they (the auditors) can hold me n audit. SWAY! drug Fridge temperature not monitored- my problem??! i think we should try changing the auditing scheme 1 day. nurses on the ground should go audit them.. =p anyway, she was funny also la! whenever i answer correctly, she would say "Clever Gal!" in a very high pitch tone. haha! really wasnt my day at all lorh..

she's gone. i'm glad i actually manage to go into her room to hav a last look at her. she looked so different. ur definately dearly missed by every one in our ward.

out after work to collect my specs with aiying, leong n chongling at bugis. had dinner cum lunch at V8. n the garlic bread happened to look like a heart shape!

off on tues. met up meixuan, aiying for singing at top1. sang from 11am all the way till 6pm.

after singing.. met my other polymates for dinner at sakae sushi.. and some how, this salmon sushi just made me wanna take photo of it. look like cake.. =)

after dinner, walked around bugis n ended our meet up with photos again! heee..

wed n thurs. nothing interesting thou. just the same old "busy at work"...

2009-03-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

im super sway today! definately sway to the maximum! ROAR!

2009-03-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

blogging at wk place! =) but i must clarify 1st.. i had already officially knock off at 9.35pm!

im back working at ward 72 again! great feeling taking care of my ex tranplant patient. thou sad to see them back here again. nursing only 2 patients, but honestly i felt very worried i'll forget to do the "junior" job, bcause i doesnt hav any junior. (i know i dun need any junior thou) but lucky "sister" leong was around! hahaha.. nursing the cooridor n taking care of her many "children"..
i must agree i'm really bad at cooking man! even preparing a simple bowl of oats for my patient also cannot make it.. my goodness.. AIYOYO.. =p 1st few steps was correct okay! 1st i scooped 5 tablespoons of oats n put it into a bowl. then i added boiling water. next i consulted my colleague what should i do next. she said put into the microwave n heat up a lil more. so i did. i set 1 min for tt. then.. another 1 of my patient pressed his call bell. so, i walked off for the 1 min to answer the call bell. n i IMMEDIATELY went back to the microwave. i was like .. "shucks!" the microwave din stop after 1 min. n my oats "boil out the bowl!" really failure man! tsk! what a joke!

im excited! gg to collect my specs tmr! weee... =D

2009-03-14T20:32:00.001+08:00

work was great for the past few days! =) nursing 3 patients with maximum staffs. going home on time. wee.. =D

2009-03-12T19:45:00.002+08:00

out with aiying after work yest to bugis.. bought inner beauties, n made myself a pair of specs! =) happy happy.. nice shopping with aiying.. thanks for the icecream! =) home by 10.30pm.

finally off after 4 days of consecutive morning. slept till 12noon. shiok.. seems very long ago tt i spend more than 12 hours with my comfortable bed! 1st thing brought wilbur for a walk under tt hot sun.. he enjoyed alot. i donno when was the last time he went out for a walk freely. but looked like he injured himself after the walk cause he was limping. poorthing. spent my off day washing uniforms, clothings, vaccuming floor. tiring.. it's work agn tmr.. jiayou!

2009-03-09T18:24:00.004+08:00

i did some quizs on fb.. quite true thou! but not the 1st one!

1) what's my mental age?

Result: 6 Months Old
You love to get pampered, take lots of naps, and eat mashed bananas. And really, there's nothing wrong with that stuff. You love to be comfortable and close to the people you love. That stuff's all great! Just be sure to change your diaper every once in a while.

2) What Kind of Girlfriend am i?

Result: Dream Girl
You've got it all -- affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that guys want their girlfriends to have.

3) Am i Emo?

Result: You're Not Emo At All
If you took this quiz to validate your own non-emo-ness, then congratulations! You passed with flying colors.

You're the opposite of emo: optimistic, light-hearted, and totally unafraid to wear baggy pants. Maybe you like hip hop...maybe country's more your style. Either way, you're sure as heck not listening to that whiny emo stuff.

But doesn't part of you want to embrace the dark side? Try on some black eyeliner and see how it feels. You may be surprised by your own emo-ocity.

You're light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy -- a great combination. When you start a relationship, there's a good chance the guy will totally fall for you, whether he intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you're sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.)

4) Are You Really In Love?

Result: It's Love!
Whether you've been with your sweetheart forever or you just started dating, there's definitely a love vibe going on.
You like to kick back and have fun together, but your feelings extend deeper than that. No matter how bad things get, you know you'll be there for each other. And that's the foundation of a strong, mature relationship.

5)What Do People Like About me?

Result: You're Sweet
It makes complete sense that people want to be your friend. You'll do anything to make their life better - even if it means making your own life a little worse.
We commend you on your generosity, and we hope that people will learn from your example and quit being so self-centered all the time. But make sure to look out for your own needs, too. Being too nice can lead to people taking advantage of you.

6) What's Wrong With Your Kisses?

Result: You're Too Good
Maybe it's sheer instinct, or maybe it's all that practicing you did on your little sister's Bratz doll, but whatever it is, you really know your moves.
And what's the problem with that? Well, nothing really. Unless you're trying to pretend like you're inexperienced. Because no one who kisses you will ever believe it.

7) What's Your Kissing Style?

Result: Romantic Kisser
Beware of your kiss -- it's been known to make people fall in love.
To you, kisses are the finest expression of love. (And you love being in love.) You think that the best kisses happen when the feelings are strong and the love vibes are pumping at maximum speed. That doesn't mean you're a traditional kisser, though -- you love to mix it up with creative kisses and keep things interesting. Kissing is an art, and when you get going you're like Picasso

8) What's Your Kissing IQ?

Result: 163: Kissing Genius
Anyone who's lucky enough to kiss you is in for a treat they'll never forget. That's 'cause somehow - whether it was through intense research, sheer luck or just lots and lots of practice - your kissing skills are top notch.

2009-03-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

it's another day at work. bro send me to work place, at the same time brought wilbur for a car ride. =) he has yet to go out for a walk for quite some time. poor lil thing. =p work was alright. thanks to leong n beverly. =) interesting thing- 1 patient went home leave n suppose to b back by 8pm but hasnt back at the time i left for home also. he seems uncontactable. haha! very funny =p

2009-03-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

work up as early as the birds this morning. accompany dear for blood test at cdc. well, should phrase it the other way. i forced him to go for blood test n hence accompanying him. haha! =p thank god. everything went well. his platelets went back to normal, instead, it went a lil over. 441k. all the way from 70odd. god bless. =D liver inflammation still hav. but hmm, the doctor said should recover soon. shall see his next blood test. i hope he would b fine.

work was alright today. manage to go home a lil in time thou. =) received my PPA (personal performance appraisal) today. satisfied. training me to take over bmt? my jaw dropped when he said tt. aiyo! tt's the biggest joke ever heard..
anyway, i just dun understand how participation in voluntary activities or donation programmes can contribute to the fact tt whether are you performing well at work. doesnt make any sense at all. it doesnt mean tt if u dun donate money to the whatever fund or u din receive any compliments letter from patients means ur performance is bad. n i dun feel tt talking to patients n ask them to write in compliments for u is a good idea at all. it's just very wierd! eek.

2009-03-05T11:57:00.026+08:00

met Gtos on monday after work at jp "bakerzin". enjoyed great time with them.. =)

tues after work, headed our with my colleagues to bugis for dinner at "ajisen" n k session at "topone". lotsa fun.. 1st time gg k with many ppl.. =)

out with dear to marina sq yest. 2 weeks din see him, he looked so different after the dengue. poor boy. watched "marley n me", which we had promised to watch it with each other.. =) super touching show larh.. after watching tt show im so afraid i'll lose wilbur.. =( but anyway, i enjoyed talking out with dear n of course his company.. love u many! =)

1 last video to end my post.. this is super funny! heee...

2009-03-01T01:18:00.002+08:00

joined aiying, leong n indra for dinner at clementi sakura with sis chong n gang after work today. cab down from wk place because was raining cats n dogs. so lame, we reached there at 5.04pm when the restuarant only open at 6pm. no place to sit, shelter in the middle of no where. so ulu. stood there, "enjoyed" the rain, for almost an hour. tsk. anyway, there's wider range of food varieties compared to the 1 at orchard we went the other day. enjoyed alot because they were there. =)

left at 8 plus n cab down to jp for movie, slumdog millionaire. i was struggling really hard to keep myself awake at the middle part of the show. but failed. i so much wanted to watch tt show. so tired i guess. n so full. tt's y. show ended 11plus. home almost 12mn.

im glad ur alright now. having a lil peace of my mind.

2009-02-27T22:18:00.005+08:00

work was great. occupying me fully. happy to have carolyn around. =) thanks gal.

photos do bring great memory. but at times, even a glimpse of it, made my heart pain. for now at least. =(

many movies to watch! marley n me, he's just not that into u, hotel for dogs, let the right 1 in. n few of the romance movies. wanna watch those soon..

2009-02-26T11:56:00.002+08:00

finally. i hear from u. a day seems like years. finally, i let go of the heavy emotions in me. im still very worried. really praying hard for ur health! get well soon..

thanks for the concern leong n carolyn. n my mummy. =,)

2009-02-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

work was alright. there was just something very important occupying my mind every min. im sorry leong, fizah n ash if i let u guys feel uneasy with my unusual attitude. forgive me for tt.

2009-02-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

=,( all because u dun want me to worry abt u.. im feeling lost..

ur gonna b alright. i miss you.

2009-02-24T20:07:00.005+08:00

visited enoch, my 3days old cousin yesterday at my grandma's place. he's super small n cute. bought him a set of clothings from wk place. hee.. =)

spending whole afternoon playing with pet's society. destressing game. occupying my mind as well. bathe my precious doggie. nothing else. couldnt wash clothings because it's raining. rather work then spending my off day liddat.

laughing it away! it really help.. i love all my patients n my fellow colleagues.. they help me to laugh n forget worrisome stuffs. =) thanks alot! for being there.. - carolyn, i totally agree with u, laughing is the best medicine.. hahaha..

2009-02-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

he's back. from icu yest. hope he will make it thru.

dear ? having dengue. he's sick. =( dono what to do. im very worried. haiz.

2009-02-19T16:45:00.028+08:00

back to blog! =) haven been updating because i was tired! not lazy. 5 straight days of morning lei. it's totally crazy. to think back abt it, i really wonder how did i survived it thru. =p but it did it! applause applause! =D

work was horrible on monday morning. it was supposed to be a calm day with 3 patients n 2 nurses. but an ex nicey transplant patient admitted into the ward at 9.30am complaining of high fever yester night, felt breathless n giddy. his blood pressure was way way low when i measured. 68/38mmhg. omg! oxygen level only 90%. blood taking, oxygen 2liters to 4 liters to 6 liters to 50% face mask. 3 pines of gelofundine. 1 pine of saline. it din work. his blood pressure still hang around 60plus/3oplus mmhg. Dopamine was the next thing. as expected, it finally picked up to 110/70mmhg. phew! it was a lil of a icu mood tt day! just the 2 of us working man! of course thanks alot to jordon, helped alot. 1 discharge, 1 chemo, another patient is our mr V"I"P. tsk. but managed to go back on time! =) it was quite sometime tt hasnt been this busy. =p

tues- 2 transplant admissions. i did 1, michelle did another. it went smoothly. patients n relatives are very nice ppl. although they are paying class. =p met sin n banchin after work at suntec. had dinner at just noodles. took pictures of course. =)

my tomyum chicken set! =)

sin's spicy chicken set.

she n her food.. =)

shopping around for ideas on dear's v day n anni gift was what i did everyday after all the morning shifts. i've been stressing abt it since 12 feb. well, it's kinda last min decision to do something for him tt's y it was really stressful. many were involved in the special present. =)
thanks to :
Meow for the food ideas,
ash for the butterfly drawings,
my 2nd uncle for the photos,
my youngest n 2nd aunts n dad for the help with the "tree of memories",
mummy for the eggs n helping out with cooking,
alvin for shopping at ps with me

finally got it done on 18feb2009, 3 am! =)

the special card.. =)

n our "tree of memories",

lastly, the food! with love =) his fav egg was the main thing in the dish..

met dear at cwp yesterday. watched "the curious case of benjamin button". had dinner at food court eating our tomyam soups. n then spend the 1st moment of our 5th month tgt. =D happy anniversary! =) hope you like everything tt i've done.

it's off day today still. =) dyed my hair black! super black. kinda regret. i think i'll get the colour back to my usual non-black one of these days. =D new look thou. heee. vaccum my house n now, im dead tired n sleepy. time to rest! such long post. haha..

2009-02-15T23:12:00.002+08:00

i am super piss off with the management level! omg. today is sunday. they allowed all the staffs to knock off earlier at 3 pm but forgetten about us. no one told us tt we can leave this early. not the 1st time. sian! irritated.

out with alvin to PS after work to shop around. headed to my grandma's place..

2 more mornings to go! jia you!

2009-02-14T19:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentines' day! =) saw many couples out there on my way home. flowers, balloon. so sweet! love is in the air! unfortunately, dear is working. our 1st valentine, wasnt able to spent tgt. but, everyday is Vday to us, as long as we have each other. =)

Ms A left us. when i have so so much hope that she's able to make a miracle, thou doctor's already told them the transplant success rate was only 20%. it's really upsetting. =( i last nursed her on 9 feb (last monday). she passed on yest at 5 am in the morning. her body left for her hometown in the afternoon with her family. the lung infection is definately the culprit. but well, blessed she is in the hands of god.

work was really too peaceful that makes me cold n sleepy easily. soon, it's gonna b hectic time at work le. 3 transplants admission coming next week! jiayou!

out with dear to vivo yesterday. watched "Defiance", had dinner at our yummy japan food place. spent our early v day tgt! =) but my poor boy was sick! his nose is running away from his face.. hhaha =p so much tt he is hard-of-smiling. haha =p

i just changed my noons shifts to mornings. omg! im doing 5 mornings straight in a row! unbelievable.. today is my 2nd morning. 3 more to go before resting. jiayou!!!

2009-02-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

Ms A has step up from ICA to ICU le. =( her mom really sad larh. made me feel very upset also. sigh!

it was a super peaceful day at work! 3 nurses, 3 patients. cracking my brain and hand to do something the whole afternoon. n at last, something is done! =) hope the recipient will love it.. =))

2009-02-11T22:23:00.004+08:00

it's my 2nd off day. needa wait for another 6 days before my next off days. boring. slept well on my 2nd off day. played pet's society almost for 2-3 hours. it's totally crazy. level up to 28 finally after so many days. hav very strong urge to eat double cheese burger the moment i woke up. asked my bro to buy back since he was out at IMM. he totally fail his job if he would b the mac delivery man. haha! the fries- xtreme soggy. the burger- cold. the drinks- not cold. aiyo! but anyway, still did satisfy my urge a lil. =) been frustrated for the whole day. cracking my brain on something important. aiyo! i hope to get the "solution" out of the "problem" by tmr morning. =))

finally, ive changed my blogskin. haha! so much brighter now. =p it's unique larh. because it's scroll left and right. hee.. =))

i've heard Ms A went to ICA. (intensive care area, 1 step lower than ICU) sigh. her mom must b really worried. jiayou gal!

2009-02-10T22:30:00.002+08:00

work was super frustrating yest. although only have 2 patients under my care, but i only finished work at 4.30pm! did 1 hour of OT lorh. Ms A was good. she's consider obedient right now. her mother's actions and words can make my day. haha! very cute n funny.. =p the other patient is for home so SUDDEN! nothing was taught to her. spent more than 2 hours doing all the "full" discharge thingy for her. tsk! waste alot of time. =p

met dear after work at jp. =) finally met him after a week. happy! road isnt v smooth for us 2-3 days back. but we're perfectly fine now! =D had dinner at thai xpress. ate our all time fav Tom yum soup! hee. planned to watch The curious case of benjamin button. but because it'll b too late by the time it finished, hence headed back home with him. instead, spent our night watching the round round moon at my place n talked things out. it's really great to have him around! really!

it's off days after 5 days of work! =)) woke up at 11 plus, ate brunch. then started "working" at home. washed clothings, hang them out, vaccum my house, bathe wilbur, lastly, brought in the clothings when dry. wow! spent 6 -7 hours altogether. had steamboat dinner outside my place beside the fish pond with my mom n bro. haha! great atmosphere. air is cooling. but i think i spent more time cooking the food than eating lorh. only if some 1 was there to help me cook n i just hav to eat.. hahah! =pp some 1- u know who u are.. hahha! =p kidding larh. 1 more day to rest tmr. happy happy!

wilbur is super cute today! i accidentally "ki-yup" his tail when i shut the toilet door to bathe him, he barked like a mad dog. haha! another incident was when he saw his dog fren outside, he excited-ly ran to the window to look at him, n din watch his way, tripped over the fan cable wire. and he "scream"! haha.. so funny larh! make me laugh until stomachache. 1 more incident was when i was vaccuming the floor, he thought the vaccum is attacking him, he wanted to fight with it. haha!! cute larh my boy! =pp love him so much!

2009-02-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

work was great today.. it's been a super peaceful afternoon! but a lil too peaceful. =p finished passing over at 9.15pm. so fast.. hee.. =p how i wish everyday will be lik this..

2009-02-07T23:39:00.016+08:00

Ms A is well taken care of under me. =) as time goes by, i can handle her n her mom tactfully n easily. =) home at 3.35pm sharp.

headed to hougang mall n shopped for almost 1 hour plus for my cousins' present. lik walking zombie. well, shopping alone can be quite fun. cos u dun hav to wait for any1. =p finally got them a cat handphone pouch, dog bone keychain, n a gift bag. next took at bus to my aunt's place. wow, i m so proud of myself! cos i manage to get to her place safely without mi lu. =x had my 1st meal of the day at almost 7pm. hungry!! food -nice. =)

pretty =)

bday card

annette n her present

annette n me

boo..

me n boy boy

starting to da bao!

sweet couples

us n 2nd aunt

still da bao-ing.. haha

2009-02-06T18:44:00.002+08:00

1st day back to work was alright.. not busy, but occupied.

today. took care of 1 patient as she was labelled "very sick" by one of the night staff. she gave alot of "instructions" to what i should/ must do, this n that.. occupied but nt busy.

been trying to immerse myself with loads of work.. seems successful for that 8 hours.. SMILE!

2009-02-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

last day of my leave.. cannot describe how unwilling i am to step into SGH again tmr. =( i din really enjoy myself today. woke up, online, feeling super frustrated/uneasy, went to sakura @ orchard with bunch of colleagues in the evening. well, the food isnt very nice. mayb because the surrounding factors. and the thought of working tmr just put me off. i am unhappy today.

2009-02-03T14:57:00.007+08:00

jolene is feeling happy!!~ =)

spent 24hours with my boy at sentosa! weeee! =p see water, enjoy the breeze, see ppl, see food, eat food, watch tv! my 1st time booking chalet on my own! it's definately something great to talk about! haha! cos i myself thought im not someone good at planning things! whahah! =) well, room for improvement right dear? haha..

of course of course.. my camera is the most busy and tiring fren yest.. hee.. yippie!! photos.. HERE IT GOES!!

i know NOTHING abt this person (on the left) 2 yrs back..

i had only realised his existence somewhere august 2007 when we become FRIENDS via friendster.

more than a year later, this person from a "NO ONE", become my best male buddy, my emotional dependant, my boyfren.. =D

Double Js -190908 =)

love u dear!

2009-02-02T01:43:00.013+08:00

sunday was out to my 2 uncles' place at the eastern part of singapore. took many picutures!

started off with photo taking even before leaving my house.. haha!

it's my sis n me again..

mummy n me!

sis, meizhen(bro's gf), me, n mummy taking 1 more shot before leaving home.

1shot in the car!

cute ah gong n his granddaughter poise number 1..

cute ah gong got tired of poising in front of the camera..

ahma was so relunctant to take photo with her granddaughter..

enjoying my white wine.. =)

love this photo the most! me n happy! =) my uncle's doggie..

im so excited! it's chalet later with my ox! =)

2009-02-01T13:04:00.002+08:00

it's sunday! gonna go visit my uncles' place later. and prep for chalet tmr!! wohoo! =)

2009-01-31T19:54:00.002+08:00

it's another day gone.. woke up 10am. HAND WASH some clothings. so tiring lorh.. brought my boy for a hour walk out the estate.. hmm, i think he brought me out for walk instead.. =p tsk! watched tv, entertained guests, and am waiting for kj to come to my place to bainian. haha! lucky him, he escaped the crowd. haha..

2009-01-30T23:39:00.010+08:00

met mr ox today! =) after 1 week plus i suppose. tsk. watched "bride wars" nicey! very touching.. reminds me of sin. =)

some more photos taken during cny..

popo n great granny - love this shot!

me and cousin, annette

annette, me n sis..

me, sis, annette and audrey

nieces and aunty pat..

nieces with aunties

with my 33weeks pregnant jiu mu..

us with aunt pat..

mummy with great granny!

2009-01-29T22:11:00.006+08:00

it's thursday le! time really fly lorh! another 1 more week i'll be back to work! n my next slot of leave i think it's may. i forget le.. =(

slack at home yest n today. relatives came visiting yest. today, went out for a tedious jog with my bro. tiring! brought wilbur out for a walk as well. cny, im missing u le! =p

love this phrase by my Ox. hee. =) "it's best that you dun let go, cos im not letting go"

2009-01-27T20:16:00.013+08:00

2nd day of CNY. spent 7 hours out. went to 4 places. collected 8 angpows. =) took many photos. eat many pineapples. bbq meat. blah blah.. the most exciting days of cny over le.. gonna get back to the usual days. so sian! i still got 8 more days to spent at home thou! =) happy happy. hee..

me n sis

me n my 7years younger cousin annette

my pregnant jiu-mu, cousin annette, me, sis, youngest aunt at the bottom right, cousin audrey, and 2nd aunt at the top.

me n my 3rd aunt

me n my youngest aunt.

a shot of my ah gong n ah ma.. hee

ah gong n his grand daughter. haha. he looked so cute!

mummy, ah gong n me..

2009-01-27T11:46:00.004+08:00

1st day of Cny..

sis, me n brother

sis, mom n me..

once agn..

home at 11pm. yawn!

2009-01-26T11:24:00.002+08:00

happy cny! =))

last few days of work isnt that bad! Ms A's mom gave me ben n jerry ice cream! wahah! =p n enjoying every bits of it before my 10 days off from my work place! =) patients' relatives n colleagues are so generous! giving us oranges n chocolates, cookies to eat! =) Mr E is still dragging his time. i think he should spend his quality time back in his own country instead.. falling sick isnt what you want. but seeking for treating or spending quality time in Country B is the best option i guess. not spending time in denial stage. Jia You ba!

im gonna enjoy myself carolyn! WAHAH! double of urs ! =pppp

2009-01-23T23:02:00.001+08:00

一位女子，开出征婚条件有两点
1.要帅
2.要有车
电脑去帮她搜寻结果:象棋

这位女子，不服搜出的结果又输入
1.要有漂亮的房子
2.要有很多钱
电脑去帮她再次搜寻的结果:银行

此女子仍然不失望，继续输入条件
1要长得酷
2又要有安全感
结果搜出的结果是:奥特曼

此女子仍然不失望，还继续输入条件
1.要帅
2.要有车
3.要有漂亮的房子
4.要有很多钱
5要长得酷
6又要有安全感

电脑去帮她再次搜寻的结果:奥特曼在银行里下象棋。。。。

it's a tiring day. muscle aching. =( both hands "soaked" in water for almost 9 hours. they looked like my grandmother's hand now. back to work tmr. tt's so fast.

2009-01-22T23:46:00.003+08:00

im finally having my 2 days off after 6 consecutive days of PAP shifts! =) after work, went out with aiying, leong n hy to chinatown to breathe some cny atmosphere. many ppl along the streets. many stalls selling cny stuffs. dinner at this chinese restuarant. very wierdo de. donno how to say. haha! anyway, dinner was nice. although taste a lil like mummy's cooking. back home at 11 plus. was so sleepy.

woke up 12noon today. been so long ever since i last sleep for long. haha! so shiok! =) helped out a lil at home then head out 3pm to meet my dear at heeren for shopping. had lunch at "pasta de waruku". shopped cineleisure, then robinson n john little. bought blouse for mummy, shades n umbrella. haha! =p went to jp. wow! the new jp is so big! n 2 of the shops there are so cool! love the things ther. =) so special! dinner at long john silver. then home by 11pm.

another day off at home tmr. then it shall be work for 2 days before im gg for my 1 week leave! =) will be back to work on the 5th feb. so happy! =))

copied this sentence from ay's blogs. some conversation said in Ip man. this is sweet ->

“我听说咏春拳是女人创的拳，我看挺适合你啊。叶问，你还真怕老婆啊！”
“这个世上没有怕老婆的男人，只有尊重老婆的男人。”
"你真没意思！你要开武馆，为什么不第一时间告诉我？”
“我什么时候说要开武馆？”
“全佛山都知道了！”
“全佛山都知道？我不知道啊！”

"爸爸，妈妈说你再不出手家里的东西就全烂了！"

“每个人走的路, 都是要自己去选择 ”

“佛山最厉害的是谁？当然是叶问，难道是我啊？！”

“我只是个翻译，不是走狗，我也要吃饭”

“我只不过是一个中国人 ...”

2009-01-20T23:40:00.002+08:00

work today was also busy.. but so much better than yesterday.. because dream come true! worked with carolyn and aiying! =) very busy at work, no time for dinner. but am very happy working with the two of them. =)) Ms A n her mom still very irritating at times. hah! but they are some times very funny also. =p 1 more day more! weeee!

i miss u! =)

2009-01-19T19:03:00.001+08:00

ROAR! it's a damn frustrating day! day at work is horrible! very horrible! busy like no body's business! work till my hands shake alot. many many IVs. 3 line dressings. basic nursing care. n entertaining nonsenses from tt irritating mother n daughter. I was totally pissed off with them. she took her own sweet time to bathe, despite telling her over and over agn that she has to b ready for radiation by 8am. after coming back from radiation, she give me tt "eye-rolling" look and said "later" for connection to the drip and line dressing. i believed it was my 1st time being so firm and fierce, i guess, to a patient. i said, NO! i have to do it now. no longer gonna give in to her. she n her mother got zero respect to the nurses. Rude to the core! like mother and daughter. i totally dont understand her culture. and i dun need and dun wish to know as well! what else, work till gonna vomit blood le but ppl still dun appreciate things that are done. still can comment on this n that. that u should do this and do that. fed up! as soon as i finished my report writing, its 3.40pm. head str off away from tt stupid place! i hate my day at work today!! its been long ever since i last hated my day at work. but still, thanks for ppl who helped me, if they do.

2 more days! counting down so eagerly.. my dear carolyn.. sobbb! =( i couldnt believe tt ur leaving le. almost tear when u said u sent in resignation letter. argh! esp today. already very sad at work le. haiz. holding on onli.. jiayou! gonna enjoy every single shift working with u!

happy anni to us..

2009-01-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

slept early yest. around 8 plus at night i headed to dreamland le. super tiring. mood isnt the same as well. haha! hate the woman thing. anyway, slept for more than 12 hours. till 1030hrs this morning. very shiok but still very sleepy. bro picked me to work but still, i was late agn! opps! i think if they really gonna implement the fine system for latecomers, i'll be the most generous n unwilling contributer. haha! anyway, work today was alright. occupied. working with hy n a kinda new junior. so, had to follow up on alot of things. n Ms A n her fam is still the same. asking this n that over n over agn. being rude-as usual. hard to pls. what can i say? they are the "customers". finished work only at 10pm. 3 more days to my off days! jiayou! gonna b a hectic week!

misses u lotssssss... =)

2009-01-17T18:31:00.003+08:00

xtreme sleepiness when started work this morning. yawn umpteen times! omg!~ i tot in charge of 3 patients shouldnt b a prob today! but i was so occupied! if occupied with usual work im still alright with it. BUT Ms A n her mom is trying real hard to boil my blood. wasting lots of time to "nag" at her to go shower. from 9am to 1045am. only agree to shower at 1045hrs when her chemo hav to start at 11am. im sure my blood was 100degree celcius hot then. ROAR! Ms W developed quite severe RedMan Syndrome from vancomycin which already made to run over 2 hrs instead of 1 hr. her face was so flush, so red. my 1st time seeing redman syndrome. =) good experience thou. she was "jumping" in heat then. (vancomycin, ciclosporin, mgso4 were running then) haha.. all the "hot" medications. poor thing.

dizzY .. headache .. lost a lil more blood today .. =( my haemoglobulin level must b lower than usual..

Argh! im so glad tt my carolyn is happy happy now.. =) blessed u are..

2009-01-16T23:13:00.001+08:00

work was alright.. 2 new patients.. omg, nurses are being treated more like a maid to her.. dun like it lorh. i shall be firm to u. dun care =p

2009-01-15T23:23:00.003+08:00

woke up as early as the birds this morning. =( i was so reluctant to part with my bed. but bed VS granddad. sigh. of cause, im a filial granddaughter. =p dragged myself out, washed up. and headed down to my work place on my off day. ROAR! on the way up, i saw 2 of my colleagues heading home from night shifts, saw my ex transplant patient turning up for her appt. then met my granddad at the xray department. not too bad, the waiting time isnt long. well, mayb i got patience. =) hee. then met this aunty when i was coming out of the ladies. seriously, i dun understand why she's making a lil fess over waiting for her turn to the loo for less than 5mins. singapore typical aunties! or mayb due to aging, her bladder muscles arent functioning the way it should. tsk! headed to the pharmacy to buy medications for my granddad. n i helped him save $4.20 by flashing my staff card! =)) so happy! brought him to the housemen canteen, since he hasnt been to the newly renovated one. walked through all the stalls, till the last one, den my granddad turn n look at the opposite side, den he asked " how about that side?" . my granddad really funny n cute lorh! he was actually looking into the mirror! then i said, " it's the same. ur looking at the mirror!" hahah!!! =pp both of us ate tomyum noodles, n he had his fav kopiO. headed home next! home at 12noon. washed my clothes tt was pile up for days. n cleared my long "lost-touch" table. tiring day! gonna rest up well tonight n get myself ready for the 6consecutives PAP shifts. =) jiayou! to myself. n to kj! stress free! =)

2009-01-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

slept till 12pm. cleaned my windows. out with kj. watch "seven pounds". dinner @ pastamania. =) enjoyed every seconds with him. =))

In seven days god created the world, in seven seconds i shattered mine.. -ben

Do you consider yourself as a good person? -Ben
How would you answer that question if i ask you the same? - Emily

2009-01-13T23:43:00.002+08:00

work was alright today. 3 of us nursing only 5 patients with 1 discharge and 1 admission to do. but still! OT OT! sigh! went back home only 4plus. tsk! donno what's the thing tt kept us so occupied in the early afternoon. both of us couldnt figure out why. haha! but anyway, thanks elaine n hafizah! great working with you guys! =D

im glad ur finally going home today! tk care! i could see bright future ahead of you! =) blessed~

2009-01-12T23:23:00.007+08:00

yest was a day at 72. so long ever since i last worked there. well, lucky indrani, halwa and izzaidah were around. else i'll b bored to death! anyway, was doing the junior job thou. 4 bed sponging out of 8 patients! super duper alot! BUT! today they had got max. staffs! 6 nurses nursings 8patients. alot man! but tt xplain y work was done n finished fast. knocked off half hr earlier! =)

out with kj after work. =) he picked me from the hospital, n we sat down to wait for SM lee. omg! 1st time in my life i saw hiM! he is so charming lorh.. so friendly grandfatherly looking.. hee

headed to cineleisure, hang around orchard. had dinner at ajisen. n catch movie~ Red cliff 2.. nice! =) liang chao wei is so handsome! haha.. dear bought cute couple tshirt! haha.. happy! =)

tt's the shirts!=)

2009-01-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

normal day at work.. occupied.. satisfied.. =) started work 7am sharp. Knock off 3.35pm sharp. =)

2009-01-08T23:41:00.005+08:00

getting more and more lazy to blog.. haha.. =p

enjoyed my 2 off days thou.. =) wed - out with my colleagues (Ay, Hy, and meow) to changi village. initially, the purpose to go there is to find more information about the civil service club house. wanted to rent chalet out there, but it is really very pity that it's no longer for rental. the scenery is superb! =( love the sea breeze man! haiz.. but anyway, we headed to have our dinner at the nearby hawker centre. treated mao n aiying dinner as their belated bday present. =)

so windy....

stayed over at meow's place. watched movie n made frens with her 2 meow meow, niko n pussa. n also had a tour around her house. haha..

tt's niko!

niko drinking his favorite milk..

niko poising on the chair..

tt's the shy lil pussa..

pussa looked like tiger lorh..

he sit like wilbur.. haha

both of them waiting outside the toilet for their owner.. haha

nice poise!

pussa peeping under the door..

he lies like wilbur!

niko on the window platform.. gosh.. so dangerous!

niko so cute! covering his eyes while sleeping..

pussa busy eating!..

headed to simlim next morning with my brother, collected stuffs from AH then home next.. =) tt's the end of my 2 off days.. =)

2009-01-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

wilbur going shopping~ haha.. =p

2009-01-03T00:06:00.009+08:00

Happy New Year ppl! welcome to 2009~

im one of the few lucky ones, who's not working on new year eve and new year day. =) spent my new year eve out with my "fang da tong". had dinner at seoul garden. it was years since i last been to seoul garden.

tt's fang da tong. hee, does my boy look like him??

very glad tt the moment from 2008 to 2009 was spent with kj. He was the last person i was with for the last moments of 2008. and also the 1st person i saw in the year 2009! =) love him lotss =))

met up GTOs on new year day. finally! after almost 3 long months. shopped around at orchard and dinner tgt. =) took photos as well.

back to work today.. felt so tired. so SIAN at work! moody moody! =( my throat hurts so so much! been having pain for 5days le. when i thought the pain will subside itself, it worsen. in the short 4 hours, i had popped in 5 lozenges but it's nt helping at all! my imagination went wild, thinking abt my throat lorh. will it be throat cancer or anything serious. =(
so moody today tt i upset kj with what i said. =( im sorry my dear. thanks for ur understanding, ur love and ur concern!

2008-12-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

work load was alright today. BUT! early morning at work, this woman pissed me off! totally. ROAR! what makes you think that im not listening to what u were passing?! excuse me, i can multi-task.. im not deaf.. its not like i have to lean next to you to tell u tt im listening to every single word that you are passing. dun pick on ppl's mistakes when u are not even perfect! boo!

photos taken at kbox with my family!

2008-12-29T23:38:00.003+08:00

Finally uploaded the pictures taken on huangyu's bday! enjoy =)

pictures taken on the kbox out with my family will be out soon.. haha! =p

just lost 2 patients in 1 day. both went to icu on fri n sat, one after another. n both left us yesterday. its rather fast and sudden but expected. haiz. transplant, is that really a good and best choice of cure? i've got no idea. i thought, im rather good at drawing a line between me and my patients. i think i did that well. at least, now their away from sufferings.

met kj yest after work at cwp. had dinner at crystal jade. watched "bedtime story". spent wonderful 4 hours tgt! and i received a gift from my boy! hee =) very beautiful lor. so touched! =] thanks alot my dear! havent take a pic of it! will do tt soon.. haha.. =p