work was bad.. busy n very occupied . dont even have time for some water. =(( thirst, and my throat sore. =( very sleepy @ work. din sleep well. my mind seems to be very wide awake even thou im sleeping. i cant help it. i dislike that part of me. being easily affected by ppl's action. being jealous so easily. im sorry, but i really couldnt help it feeling those unconscious emotions of mine. 

=,( i  truely appreciate the "just to let me know" kinda thing. thanks for that. but im still a woman. i guess feeling so insecured is part of what woman will feel in such situation. im controlling. =( but it seems to b out of control. im missing u alot. so much that i feel like crying. =(((((((

are you still with me?