Saturday, July 19, 2008
finally, jci is over. =) im so glad that i dont have the luck to see the auditors. and i never seen them once anytime during the auditing week, not eveing when im in my home clothes. ^^

thou jci was a stressful thing, work was busy this whole week as well. tt add on to even more stress at work. i could kinda turn the working area to a pseudo- slimming centre; no time for drinks n food, rushing up and down the ward like no body business, indirectly causing heart 
rate to increase thus increasing metabolism rate. ?? wat am i crapping about? haha. anyway, i've been doing OT with no pay for the pass 1 week. last wedesday was the worst. i was doing afternoon shift. was then in-charge of 5 patients. 2 critically ill ones, 1 fever, the other 2 was alright. 1 of the ill patient's condition worsen at 7 .45pm. sent to icu eventually. i was only able to complete everything at 12mn. what more, following day i was morning shift. of course, i went to work tt morning shift. =) gd gal right? haha! bt sad to hear the news tt very morning, that my 
patient left for a better place early that morning. sigh! 

today was busy busy day also. 1 of the ill patient was for PBSC infusion(transplant day). whole morning was shivering, chills+++, rigors++, vomiting+++ n diarrhea++ with high temperature of 39.2, oxygen level like shares;going up n down, breathless on/off. what goes into the mouth came out almost instantly and the amount that vomited out is more than what she consume. hard time retaining all the medication. poor thing larh! but anyway, during the stem cell transfusion, she was fine. =) thank god! 

rest day tmr! finally, after 1 whole week of hard work! =)

tinge of saddness felt. i donno exactly why. giving me hope to see u, but the feeling of disappontment when i couldnt see u agn, no much of concern show about my whereabout. are u playing with me? or m i just not as important as before? thus, m trying my best to hold back my feelings for u, tried to pretend like my feelings for u wasnt as strong as before, bt instead, it became STRONGER. i thought, by trying to pretend tt i dun care anymore, can make me feel at least much better. it failed. what can i do? =( 

m not significiant to u- that's hw i feel. 

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