Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Today wasnt a good day.. =( i was kinda sandwiched between SN M n SNM.

I worked with SN M before. worked as her junior. was happy working with her thou it was really tiring. but things is so different when i pass my morning to her afternoon. sigh. it started off quite well. all begin with me unable to read dr's handwriting, follow by nv follow up if the blood for patients is it approve. honestly i really donno that the AM shift have to call the blood bank to ask. im truly sorry, SN M. next, i realised that the GXM form for Patient A went missing, which was in the IMR this morning. god bless that PCT is not approve thou. even thou i'm not the 1 who lose the GXM form, i felt tremendously guilty for it. i was practically looking high and low, asking nurses ard if they saw any GXM form for patient A even thou his PCT wasnt approve, but i couldnt find it. =(

next, Patient B is due for CVC dressing today. He was on chemo running concurrently with hydration in the 3 way tap. he's chemo completed only @ 1.20pm. (passing report time). His hydration was still running next due @ 5pm. so i did not heplock him. He claims that he wanted his dressing to be done only after his bath. so i had yet to do his dressing. after passing report, i settle some of my afternoon medication round, n completing some of my report, it was then time for me to report for my oncology induction prog test. i told SN M that i will return to search for A's GXM form & do the dressing for B. She wasnt smiling anymore. when i return, i was ready for the dressing, everything was prepared, B was ready for the dressing as well, but SNM came to me, ask why am i still around at tt time(4pm), she wanted to pass the dressing for the PM shift to do. i explained to her that they have things to do in the noon as well, they do not hav enuf manpower, & i told SNM that i will only do that 1 & only dressing n i will go home. but SNM INSISTED me to pass to the next shift, INSISTED me to go home. i felt really bad. i donno what to do. i guess this really soured my relationship with SN M. Tons of sorries. =( i really do pray that SN M understands how i feel.

"I am new", this is not a good reason for such mistake. Time Management, delegation. i still need alot of practice. I really need some 1 to guide me thru out n not suddenly not ard, suddenly came back to see how am i doing. I will not learn in this case.


i hate being sandwiched! ;( entered at 10:48 PM

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